Tuesday, January 23, 2007
James, Jeremiah and I started our jouney back to Houston on Friday at 1:15p.m. We were plannng to travel to Louisville, KY on our first leg of the journey. Our estimated travel time was 5 hours. We were about 1 1/2 hours down the road when the traffic stopped. We sat, and sat, and sat and sat. Crawling slowly for hours. We finally arrived in Louisville at 11:00 p.m. Our 5 hour trip had taken 10 hours.
James and I both so clearly sensed the Lord trying to teach us a lesson. Will we praise Him sitting in traffic? Will be praise Him when OUR schedule is upset? Do we trust Him enough to be joyful in any circumstance, knowing His plan is BEST?
It is always easy to say we believe these things but while sitting in the car WAITING FOREVER, we saw our hearts were not what we thought they were. It is so neat that God is continually working to show us areas we need to change and grow in. The challenge is to see the problem and seek Him to change us.
Friday, January 19, 2007
It is easy as we go through our Christian walk to think we are doing pretty good. God reminds us in His Word that the heart is deceitful and desperately wicked. We cannot trust our heart when it tells us we are "ok". I started this week feeling like I was pretty "ok", I am ending this week humbled by the Lord and seeking to be conformed to Him.
It all started with a case of HIVES! I started getting hives on Wednesday night while we were in Danville, by Friday I was covered in them. After aggressively treating them all weekend with no improvement, I went to an urgent care center. The doctor and nurse were both surprised at the severity of the case and so I was quickly given a shot of steroids and two prescriptions to control things. By Monday night, I was feeling GREAT!
Tuesday we finished traveling to Cleveland and started Launch seminar. At 10pm that night, I started itching again, the hives were back! The next morning I took my medication and saw no improvement throughout the day. I sat there, reading my Bible, trying to have a good attitude. I knew God wanted me to be thankful and trust his plan. I prayed, saying the right things, but I soon found, my heart was wrong.
I began feeling angry that I had to suffer through this. I was hopeless and ungrateful because I wanted a solution that was quick and easy. I felt I deserved a problem free life.
It turned out that I had to see another doctor and get a stronger prescription. God provided many blessings through all of this. All the people at BMM were so caring and helpful. They found me a doctor, drove me to the appointment, prayed for me, and helped care for Jeremiah while I was gone. My appointment was free and the doctor gave me my prescription.
On the way to the doctor I got to know a wonderful lady who has served the Lord in Africa and here in the US her whole life. God used her to remind me of this important truth. I was created to be conformed to the image of Christ (Rom 8:29). Every thing that happens in my life is placed there by God. I can either yield, responding in a God honoring way thus being conformed to him or I can refuse and harden my heart. Will I chose to grow or not to grow?
All the tests of my daily life are revealing the condition of my heart to me. I am praying that I will yield to God's way instead of angrily demanding my rights to a problem free life.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Christmas Day we sang carols around the Piano and spent time talking to our Risen Savior as a family. I am so thankful the family traditions that keep us focused on the Reason for the Season.
We are back on the road again. This time leaving Daniel and Hannah with my parents. They are doing great and are having lots of fun bonding with Dramma and Papa.